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On Being An Historical Footnote

31 May

I am an atheist. I am childless. When I die, I will leave only footprints – hopefully not big carbon ones. But what if I could leave something else behind? What would it be?
Well, words of course.

One day (in my fantasy), in some quiet, cobwebby corner of the cyberverse an e-archaeologist will be digging down through accumulated layers of defunct blogs when his or her trowel will scrape against something called The Kinky Boot Collective. Exhumed and translated, what could I give to the future’s idea of our social history? Can I tell them how it is being a woman at the beginning of the 21st Century? Not really. I can no more speak for other women than I can for men. My background, my choice of career has led me to occupy a nowhere land between the sexes. I can only say, with some authority, that as a modern, European female I enjoy a sense of self-determination. A hundred years ago women were throwing themselves under racehorses to protest against their lack of freedom.

In this country, in my lifetime, women became equal to men in the eyes of the law. It puzzles me that this wasn’t always so. Even as a child I couldn’t conceive of a man being superior to me simply by virtue of his gender. Is this true for all British women, though? I think not, so venting my opinions on this would not add anything to a balanced view of the current present.

Let me record, then, what I can see around me in the pedestrianised centre of the small seaside town where I am sitting.

Semi-circular benches face the focal point of the war memorial where an elderly man is watching a small boy clamber up the steps of the monument. He seems to be encouraging the boy, is he explaining about the big, stone cross? Is he telling him what the inscriptions say? Or is he simply allowing the child to play so that his laughter echoes through the ether to the ghostly ears of those who died in conflict? I hope it’s the latter – the boy is too small to understand war and killing – and, after all, no matter what the conflict, surely those servicemen and women went to their graves believing in their hearts that they were fighting for a future where children can scamper over memorials and laugh in the sunshine.
The tragedy is that while the boy laughs and plays, people all over the world are dying in wars. Yes, Future Reader, we are still killing, maiming and traumatising each other, even at this late stage of human development. Every week, in my country, young soldiers in flag-draped coffins come home from Iraq and Afghanistan and it is becoming ever more common to see young men with some, or all, of their limbs missing thanks to roadside bombs; improvised devices that just go to prove that we didn’t already have enough ways to kill in this world.

For Afghans and Iraqis, the death toll is also high. In Syria, innocents are being massacred. Have you evolved past this brutality, Future World? I’m not hopeful of that.

Enough now, of bloodshed, let me draw away from the memorial to the fallen. Let me re-focus on the benches where lunchtime crowds are enjoying a late spring day in the West Country.
Typically, being British, with our aversion to sitting next to strangers unless we absolutely have to, people gather on the benches in groups with long, empty stretches between them. Admittedly some of this is down to avoiding the long streaks of gull shit that our less popular seaside residents have smeared across the wooden seats but not all of it. I confess that I wandered around the benches looking for somewhere that was far enough away from other people for me to feel comfortable. Avoiding seagull poo came second to that when choosing my seat.

It’s hot for those of us not under the shade of the trees (and under the threat of pigeons in the branches above imitating the gulls) and I can see a heat haze shimmering over the traffic droning past at the other end of the green. Young women in shorts stroll past the war memorial passing elderly couples who have swapped their winter coats for pastel coloured anoraks that make me feel uncomfortably warm just by looking at them. Dogs lie panting at their owners feet trying to avoid the advances of pre-school children that totter over to make friends, and off to my right an elderly woman is berating her husband for wandering off and not telling her where he was going.

None of this is very dramatic. It’s all very ordinary and probably quite dull but that’s kind of the point, isn’t it? I’m saying to posterity, ‘Hey, guess what, people of tomorrow? I live in a world where millions are starving, where children are hurt and abused, where terrorism, pollution and Global Warming have knocked nuclear war into fourth place in the all-time top ten of nightmares but right here, right now, the most important thing in this garden is finding a nice spot to eat our sandwiches and not get bird shit on our clothes. Are you so very different to us?’

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3 responses to “On Being An Historical Footnote

  1. Lorraine Gouland

    May 31, 2012 at 10:33 am

    Thank you, Grace for the proof read. Glad you liked the piece.

     
  2. Observer 40

    June 4, 2012 at 7:13 pm

    A most interesting and thought provoking entry. I would like to reply with a long tome but alas lack your word power. Are you truly an atheist?or maybe mearly an agnostic ? Hence the ghostly ears of those at the war memorial. Yes it would be interesting for future beings to dig up your writings and try to make sense of them According to science a so called civilised gathering of creatures can only last about ten thousand years before becoming top heavy and wiping itself out, that is why it is almost impossible for us to find or make contact with beings from other worlds the distances are to vast and even the speed of light is to slow.
    Next time you are doing the dog watch on that ship of yours look up at the stars and remember that most of them are thousands of light years away some millions, and some are already dead thousands of years ago just the last of their light reaching us across the void. So if one of those has sent us a message then most likely the people who sent it no longer exist.
    So when your writings are unearthed if far enough into the future it is (according to the sicentists) likely to be a race of intelligent spiders very big ones and very advanced and, they will look upon us and wonder, just as we do about the dinosaurs. But will they still have wars ? I suspect they will and perhaps spider war memorials where little spiders play in the sun.
    Finally about God,well,if he created earth then you only have to look up into the night sky to see that he also has quite a few other properties as well , maybe he left this one several million years ago to go and do maintenance on some of the others and has no idea that he has human squatters here who are messing the joint up. Perhaps one day soon he will return and be very pissed off and evict us!,!!

    OF COURSE IT SHOULD BE UNDERSTOOD THAT REFERENCES TO GOD BEING A HE ARE UNCONFIRMED HE MAY WELL BE A WOMAN.
    Keep up the good work !!

     
  3. Lorraine Gouland

    June 5, 2012 at 11:25 pm

    Stargazing is one of my favourite hobbies – both at sea and ashore. There’s very little light pollution where I live. The enormity of the universe always brings me to a mental standstill on a clear night. I am an atheist, I don’t believe in Intelligent Design, a creator, a deity but does that rob the universe of magic and wonder? Does it condemn me to a life without soul? No, I don’t believe so but no doubt there is a set of rules that says otherwise. Hey ho, I’ve never been one for abiding by rules I don’t respect!
    I’m very glad that my musings have touched a chord and sparked off this conversation because whatever a person’s private views, we all have common ground and stargazing is something we can all share.

    And if any giant spiders do happen to read this, I’d just like to say that I wasn’t one for stamping on your ancestors, I was a glass and paper type…

     

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